Monday January 25th, I woke up a little before 7am knowing my precious baby was coming that day. Being the small reactor I am, I didn’t want our family and midwife, Jennifer, to come over and have to wait a long time on me and baby…so I just waited with very little happening but anticipation of meeting that sweet baby I carried for 9 months. The contractions slowly changed from my normal braxton-hicks to real contractions and we decided to give everyone the heads up. My precious mom hates the idea of missing one of her grandbabies’ being born, so before we could hang up the phone she was basically in the car heading over!The contractions were different than what I’ve experienced in my past 3 labors… they were only slowly getting closer together and they would come and go based on standing up and walking around vs sitting and relaxing. Everyone slowly trickled into our home as we waited. When our midwife arrived I knew I was ready to get in the tub and start pushing. I will never forget the faces of the 4 sweet peas (Bella, Luke, Rhyan, and my niece, Addie) who stood around the tub watching and waiting for me to magically have a baby. My contractions slowed down once I was in the tub- so up and down I stood trying to keep the contractions coming. Jennifer and Eddie kept telling me I was closer and closer with each push but I felt like with Bella, I was being told to push a brick wall with no results. I knew there was only one way to hold my baby and that was to reach down with all the strength I had and push. I felt most aware during the labor even though it was one of my hardest and I remember speaking to God throughout…pushing into Him but also asking about the whole process. I felt curious about the pain and the ‘brick wall’ and His promises …though never questioning and just choosing to believe! My water finally broke and a few pushes later…my baby WAS coming! ‘IT’S A BOY!!’- I hear Eddies thrilled voice yelling! It’s one of the best things you’ll ever hear come from your husbands mouth, the excitement of declaring what is baby is! So with a natural reaction, I reached down to grab my baby only to hear Jennifer say ‘no no no wait – he’s totally wrapped in his umbilical cord’…with a few twists to unwrap his neck & arm from his umbilical cord, I finally held my amazing little man who let out some loud cries and wanting to eat right away as he frantically but quickly found his thumb to suck on! There is something so amazing about those first moments of holding the little amazing person you helped create!!
I will never forget it!
Born at 11:46am at 8 lbs 8 oz and 20.5 in long… the little man’s face was swollen to where he could barely open one eye but he tried as he was figuring out this new world he just was brought into! All three of his siblings were super excited to meet and hold him! I even noted how maternal Bella was as she held baby, how excited Luke was to finally have ‘a buddy’, and Rhyan – who we were uncertain of- how she claimed possession over little baby but in a cute way! Eddie and I couldn’t be happier making our uneven family of 5 and nice rounded 6!!!
We had one issue…we had not landed on a name for our baby boy! We had it narrowed down but I knew I had to look at him to figure out who he was…two days later, I couldn’t help but know he looked like a Ben.
I’ve always loved the name and coincidentally Eddie and I met through my cousin Ben which I thought was a neat tie and Michael which is Eddie’s middle name and his dad’s name.
I already know you’re a wise, strong, and brave man of God!
You fit a spot in our family only you could’ve filled!
You are so wanted and loved!
I can’t wait to know you more.
Thank you for letting me be your mommy!